Thought I’d write a quick little post to let all of you know how thankful I am for your continued support and friendship here.

It’s been a crazy stressful year of work for me, and although there have been so many instances when I thought, “why does this have to be so friggin hard?!”… the truth is, I’m glad… I welcome “difficult”, I guess.

I think it’s an aspect of my personality that defines me. And I’m starting to come to terms with it. Perhaps it makes me feel more alive or something, I don’t know… but I’m really happy that I’ve gotten to have some of the experiences I did this year… 117 degree desert heat waves and all.

And I can’t tell you how grateful I am to the dozens of people who have assisted me along the way… way too many to list here.

Films aren’t made alone. That’s one of the distinctive aspects of this art. Although only a few names will end up really branding the project, the reality is that dozens, hundreds, even thousands of people had to work together to put that piece of entertainment on the screen for us.

So this is a general thank you to everyone who has helped me and my friends in this industry to bring our projects to life.

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.

Okay, so it’s only been a week since my last post. Not bad, huh?

I realized, while answering comments on that post, that I had something huge happen recently that I didn’t even mention here. Crazy, cause I would have never let it slip in the past. I suppose it’s more proof that my blogging joints are a little rusty.

So about a week and a half ago, we released this:

The Homes (Trailer) from John Cabrera on Vimeo.

It’s the trailer for the series I’ve been working on. The project that’s changed my life routine in so many ways… and no doubt has contributed to my absence from social media.

I know the trailer is a little cryptic, and to be honest, it’s more of a teaser than a trailer. It was actually originally created for in house showings of the project… to Lockerz (the company that will distribute it), agents, the cast, the crew.

But we’re closing in on a premiere in early 2011, so our team decided that the time was right to show you guys what we have in store.

So here are a few new facts about the project that I can reveal:

1. The series is 12 episodes long… each episode hovers around the 8 minute mark… so I think they’re going to feel like a bit more than a “webisode”, while not quite as much as a full television primetime sit down. I do think it’s couch-fare so I hope at least a few of you have living room web setups… or laptop bed setups.
2. Every episode is accompanied by one of 12 songs we produced one month before the shoot. A full album. And that album should be available in conjunction with the series.
3. The series is about a road trip… I’m sure you figured that much out from the trailer. It’s about a girl who’s just… trying to get “Home”… hence the title.
4. And although in general the music has a very Americana feel, I like to think that the album we created is a similar sort of “road trip” across the current state of indie rock/pop/folk… we even put a touch of electro in there for good measure.
5. All of the music was performed and played by the actors. There is not a single instrument that wasn’t played by them. In fact, in a few instances we had the opportunity to use session players for some stuff, and I said no. I knew these guys could do it, and they did.
6. On the other hand, the songs were written by several established musicians and bands. In some cases we were given obscure old songs that we felt fit our themes, in other cases we used brand new stuff they’d just written, and in some cases, songs were written expressly for us. Regardless, I can assure you, this will be the first time these song are heard by a large general public. I’ve listed the songwriters here in the past, but I intend on doing full profiles of each as we get closer to the premiere.
7. Where will you view the series? Well, I can say for certain you’ll be able to view it at Lockerz.com. But my hope is that at least the beginning of the series will be open to anyone for viewing and not just Lockerz members. Currently if you go to their site, you can watch the trailer on their start page without having to sign up. That may be the case with early episodes… but I know at least a portion of the series will be behind that log in. They also just unveiled their social media component which is going to be growing big over the next few months and incorporating fun aspects of the series. If you do register for an account, please add me there… you can find me through my email john@johncabrera.com.
8. If you don’t live in the US, but are hoping to watch this series… well I’m happy to say, you have nothing to worry about. There won’t be any region restrictions. Lockerz is a global community, so we’ll all be watching this series together!
9. What else? I don’t know, ask me something.

My last post was pretty long, so I’m scaling back on this one…. I think. I mean, I’m only about 20 words in, so who knows.

I’m getting ready to cook myself a soup of some sort and I’m actually pretty excited. Today’s been a nice relaxing day. I woke up good and late, Skyped with my mom, went to the grocery store, came home… I plan on watching some History Channel via Netflix…

Okay, that sounds like a pretty boring day. What the hell, John? Where’s the pizazz?!

Hmm.

You know, I have to get something off my chest.

I’m worried that I’m not interesting enough for this blog anymore. I know that every time I go away for weeks and come back, I talk about how crazy I’ve been with work (and I have been). But deep down I think there’s a part of me that’s frankly getting worried that I’m running dry here.

I was actually talking to Steve Agee about this recently. He’d also taken a small departure from social media. Okay, small is a huge understatement. He deleted his nearly 1 million follower twitter account and went radio silent for weeks.

He’s getting back into the swing of it again, but he seemed to echo my very sentiment: I just don’t know what to say anymore.

And this may be a trap with blogging.

Okay, here’s how I feel (and any other bloggers out there, please let me know what you think of my theory?):

We first start blogging not necessarily because we have something to say… I mean we’re social animals, so we always have something to say, right? Blogging just serves us as a new outlet to get out the things that are in our heads. In my case, I began blogging around the time that I started really writing H+. I found that I had so many excess thoughts, and so it was a perfect way for me to release them.

A journal.

But then people start reading what you write, your subscriber base grows and you start to feel like these random pontifications on your life should probably be more than what you’re making them. More than just talking. They should be considered and crafted and spell checked.

So you start thinking about it every day. You come up with lists of ideas to write about. You scrutinize your own thoughts and opinions in your drafts.

And ultimately you forget about why you were even writing in the first place… and more importantly, HOW you were writing.

Okay… so currently 400 words. And as promised, I’m gonna cut this one off here. But I’d like to hear your thoughts on this, because I don’t want to believe I’m just suffering from social media burn out. That would indicate it’s all just been a playground… that the relationships I’ve made here don’t mean something deeper. And that’s just not true, because I genuinely miss you good people. I don’t know… maybe playgrounds aren’t such a bad thing. Kids sometimes develop long lasting friendships on the playground.

But I want to figure it out, because I’d like to get this blog back on track again. Maybe that does mean a bit of crafting. I know that things like Larks are something I can only do when I’m not spending 16 hour days trying to build a business. But I miss that stuff. I really do.

Recently, I decided to dedicate one day a week to this part of me. Like the whole day. Is that enough to figure this out? Not sure.

Damn, now I’m closing in on 600 words. So the next sentence is my last for this post, and perhaps it will help me figure out what to do next.

Tell me… why do you come to this blog?